Blog #PTSD

******WARNING****** The following blog includes talk of suicidal thoughts, rape and abuse. ******WARNING****** Many people have asked me and I'm sure many more have asked themselves; What happened to her to cause her to be so depressed? Well this is just a slight insight into the horrors of my past. i have spent over 20 years trying to keep them locked away but as I now know this has been one of the main reasons why I suffer so much with mental health issues. It's not the whole story, it's just an insight. The main thing is, I'm getting it out there. It's no longer trapped in my mind eating away at my soul, I have released it.

Suffering with a mental illness can make you feel that you are surrounded in darkness. Even the brightest days can be a struggle, and when you feel that you're under a constant cloud of negativity that follows you wherever you go, it can be difficult to see those bright days again. Just remember how important you are x

*******WARNING THE FOLLOWING BLOG DOES CONTAIN SENSITIVE ISSUES AND TALKS ABOUT SUICIDE************ As I try to get over a nasty cold and chest infection, I reflect back on a dark time in my life when I thought that suicide was the only answer to my problems. Here I talk about the effect suicide has on those around us, the importance of talking about how you're feeling, and my personal battle with grief and severe depression