You are the author of your future, make it whatever you want it to be.
To pre warn you now, this is a long blog. However this is one of the most important blogs I have or ever will write. Because I'm almost certain that Betsi Cadwaladr Health Board will not want this to become public knowledge, but no one mistreats my family, the community I'm so proud to live in, and the amazing staff of Ysbyty Gwynedd Vascular Unit and gets away with it. I will be silent no longer. This, is my husbands true experience. Feel free to comment, share with others or get in touch with me if you want to share your own stories.
Having finally reached a point in my life where I felt able to deal with a certain part of my past, life decided to knock me back and dealt a heavy blow when my beloved husband was taken ill. Where were we going to go from here? What would our future hold? What was I going to do? I was at a crossroads, and whichever path I chose would mean big changes in our lives. Here's the story of my current struggle.
When my mother called one morning in tears over her broken greenhouse I got to thinking how life can sometimes knock you over, throw you off balance, or sometimes break you completely. But with strength and perseverance, you can rebuild, and you will be stronger than ever.
******WARNING****** The following blog includes talk of suicidal thoughts, rape and abuse. ******WARNING****** Many people have asked me and I'm sure many more have asked themselves; What happened to her to cause her to be so depressed? Well this is just a slight insight into the horrors of my past. i have spent over 20 years trying to keep them locked away but as I now know this has been one of the main reasons why I suffer so much with mental health issues. It's not the whole story, it's just an insight. The main thing is, I'm getting it out there. It's no longer trapped in my mind eating away at my soul, I have released it.
Suffering with a mental illness can make you feel that you are surrounded in darkness. Even the brightest days can be a struggle, and when you feel that you're under a constant cloud of negativity that follows you wherever you go, it can be difficult to see those bright days again. Just remember how important you are x
As I enjoyed a few days with my family down in Cardiff for the National Eisteddfod, I noticed so many more charities, volunteers and organisations discussing mental health issues openly, in a bid to raise more awareness and let sufferers know that they are not alone. As I walked back to my fathers house I noticed a swan, and how there are similarities between the swan and someone who suffers with mental illnesses. Remember someone may appear to be as elegant as the swan, but it's what's beneath the surface that matters.